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I think being involve in sexual act with only gay’s was my fetish.
Ako si Tem. I’m already in my early twenties yet I’m still a virgin— my reason? I like gay guys, yet, alam ko namang mas gusto nilang magkaroon ng sarili nilang puke kaysa kumain ng puke ng babae. I do not force naman, if ayaw, bakit ayaw?
I have this specific gay in mind, I liked him for decades. I was fourteen when I first liked him. He was slim, tall, and very attractive. When you look at him halatang baklang-bakla. Sobrang sexy, sobrang mahinhin. At first I thought it was just mere attraction, hindi ko naman inaakalang hanggang ngayon na 24 na ako ay siya pa rin ang gusto ko.
Before, I was fine with just looking at him from time to time but as the years goes by… I felt guilty because I learned touching myself with him clouding my mind. Because of him, I pleasured myself for 5 times a day— sometimes even more!
I imagine his slim fingers moving in and out, up and down in my pussy. I imagine his sexy lips to lick and lap my lips and the lips i have below me. I imagine his his hands wrapping around my neck, chocking me as he fuck me with his mighty maleness while calling me his cum dump, slut, whore, or even his good girl.
Kaya naman nang bigla na lang nag tagpo ang landas namin, hindi na ako nag dalawang isip at i-grab ang pagkakataon na iyon para matupad ang pangarap ko na maging isang puta ng bakla.
I was 22 that time, he was 21. College na siya at nag hahanap ng marerentahan malapit sa university na papasukan niya. Hindi ko alam kung anong swerte ang napulot ko dahil ‘yong condo ko na may extra na room lang ang pinaka malapit sa uni niya! He knew me— because of his cousin who was my friend. Kinabukasan ng pag hahanap niya ay pumunta sila sa akin— kasama si Andrea, his cousin na kaibigan ko.
“Tem, p’wede ba’ng dito muna tumuloy si Zen?” Tanong sa akin ni Andrea, “Willing naman siyang mag bayad ng renta monthly.”
Kahit ’di na siya mag bayad, okay na okay lang sa akin!
I was ecstatic! Lalo na noong kinabukasan ay agad nilang inilipat ang lahat ng gamit ni Zen sa condo ko. Buti na lang ay nag linis ako, sobrang nilinis ko lahat! Labag man sa kalooban ko ay tinago ko lahat ng aking sex toys, baka kasi makita niya at matakot.
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“Ate Tem, sure ka ba na 200 monthly lang?”
Habang nag kakain kaming dalawa ay hindi niya mapigilan ang mag tanong tungkol sa renta niya sa condo ko.
Tumango ako sa kaniya at sumubo ng hotdog, “Bakit, ayaw mo ba?” naka kunot noo’ng tanong ko. Agad siyang umiling. “Gustong-gusto, ate tem!”
Nginisian ko lang siya bago magpatuloy sa pagkain.
As we ate in silence I can’t help but to think how will I let this guy treat me like his whore.